“Grownup Things” should just be reffered to as “things that are complicated for no reason.”

I’ve been looking to purchase a home.  A nice 4-5 bed 2 bath kinda house with a fireplace.  You’d think that it would be fairly easy to locate, but then you’d be wrong. I’ve been working with a real estate agent who’s done a lot of shopping around for me and is really quite wonderful but for the life of her she can’t find one of these that isn’t one half block from the train station!!!

Anyway, i’m going to look at some other houses tonight.  Hopefully i’ll find something nice and reasonable.

I just want a place where i can sit in front of my fireplace and read…in peace.

I’ve turned 26.  It was back on the 5th of February. 

I have a particular tradition on my birthday: I take the morning off from whatever i usually do to examine my life and go for a walk outside. 

I get up take a long hot shower, get dressed, and sit down to the tasks at hand.  I like to review the past year so I go over pictures, journal entries, whatever I have really that will help.  It’s an attempt to gain the clearest picture of the past year that I can.  It’s important for me b/c the very next thing i do is read my patriachal blessing.  It gives me a clear contrast between potential and achievement.

After a few hours or so of these activites I make 2 goals.  It’s always only 2 by the way.  It’s easy to focus on 2 goals just 2 little things. 

Anyway this year I made my two goals.  They are personal and i rarely if ever share them with anyone.  I won’t go into them right now, but i will say that i’ve already made huge progress on the major one.   I guess it’s just a nice feeling and i wanted to share.  it’s been a while since i’ve made much personal progress as my views on things haven’t really changed for a long while. 

I spent a number of dedicated years (15-19) constantly evaluating and re-evaluating my stance on most everything I encountered.  Not in an attempt to become static in any way, but to have, at least, a stance in the world.  For that reason alone, I have really tried to look at most everything from any angle I could think of and get a grasp of how people work and how I would like to treat them and how I would like to conduct my life. Such were the conditions of my youth that I was exposed to a wide enough scope of things that I could create a somewhat balanced view of the world as far as Suburban america goes.  I am forever greatful for this.

Anyway in the years since little has affected those views.  I’ve found them solid, dependable, and uplifting for me.  Again, this birthday, I took a long time going over and reconnecting with those views and perspectives and realized that though I haven’t moved in my views on things the practice and implication of those views has become much more unforgiving and restrictive. 

Whatever the reason…I feel as though i’ve reconnected with myself.  I wake up in the morning a happy person.

Oh, and i also got Sydney the dog.  We made it home from ATL and things couldn’t be better.  Come and visit whenever you’d like to meet her.

So, i have this really awesome dog.  Her name is Sydney.  The only problem is that she’s all the way over in Atlanta and i’m all the way in Utah….so I’m driving to go pick her up spur of the moment.

I miss her and I hate the thought of her all lonely at my parents house with no one to play with. 

wish me luck.

I’m surprised by how quickly ones views can change.  I remember that last year at this time i was barely working 6 hours a day.  I got to work at Noon and left at 6, sat in the broom closet of the office we then were working in, and thought to myself, “Damn, life’s good!  How can i make so i can always sleep in and never have to work more than 6 hours in a day.”

Keep up with me now, that wish hasn’t actually changed at all, but I DO remember that immediately after that thought i had another one that went something like this.  “All those people who work 8 hour days are such suckers!” (said with the most exaggerated superiority i could muster) 

The sting of it all is that i’m becoming strangely comfortable with waking up at 8am opening the office by 9 and working until 6 everyday.  I actually….like…..it??  Is that ok to say.  Aghgghh I feel dirty, unkempt, and like my soul is flaking like oxidized paint or dandruff all at the same time.

AAAAAANNNNNND, now it’s time to open the office.

This is me realizing i still have a blog.  It’s just a small reminder that i haven’t forgotten about you all.  I feel like my blog has become the rotting food in the back of your refrigerator that you know you need to pay attention to but can’t ever seem to get around to it. 

So…my last post was about mac’s and how people are so freakin crazy about them.  Well i bought one, ONLY because my laptop finally gave up the ghost after 5 dutiful years of service.

The long and the short of it is that i love my computer, my new digital camera, and other assorted accessories that i’ve recently added into my daily existence.

More to come soon.